I learned a hard lesson AGAIN yesterday. I learned that I am not in control of the universe. Silly me! Why did I ever think I might be for an instant.
Here’s what happened. I had scheduled a full day without client appointments so that I could do a “writing retreat”. I woke up early, did my exercises and meditated for a good 30 minutes in preparation for writing. I wrote out my intentions and journaled lots of ideas. I even moved my laptop to a pleasant new location in my sunroom for this day of creativity and writing. I was all set for a great day.
Then it all started to unravel. First, my computer kept getting locked up. I rebooted and it seemed to take forever to load up. Next I tried to connect to the internet so I could blog – and realized my wireless broadband wasn’t working. I checked the router, rebooted that and still no signal. All this commotion wasted a full hour. I realized it was time to call ATT which resulted in another 25 minute hold listening to “muzak”, only to be informed that my broadband service had been cancelled in conjunction with a failed installation of the ATT Unverse fiber optic system (another long story about wasted time I won’t repeat here).
The worst part of this was being told by the ATT rep. that I would have no internet for 4 days and there was nothing I could do about it (except scream). Learning this brought me to a boiling point and I actually yelled at the innocent ATT service rep. I realized it was not her fault, but somehow I felt entitled to yell at her because she works for such an incompetent company. My patience was totally drained and I needed to vent on someone. I was powerless. Putting up a fuss at least felt like I had some power left. Did it help my situation? Not at all.
After I hung up with this lady, I realized how silly this all was. It wasn’t the end of the world and I still had my laptop. I couldn’t use the internet, but I could write and enjoy the beautiful day. It was at this point that I decided to grab my ipod and take a 3 mile run to burn off the steam.
Did I learn something? Perhaps it is that I am just as vulnerable as anyone to losing my peaceful composure. I am human and those human feelings can feel horrible. I feel grateful that I don’t feel this way very often – and feel compassion for those who go through life in a constant state of anger, frustration and resentment. It is a toxic way to feel. It makes me all the more certain about the work I do sharing EFT and other energy methods that magically melt away this kind of stress.
Today I’m blessed to realize that I can tap into a neighboring wireless service and get online. Maybe the Universe is taking care of me and responding to my settled nerves. I’ll be teaching another Law of Attraction seminar tomorrow and know that I’ll be a more compassionate teacher having had this experience. I humbly accept the lesson.
